Day two

So I had 405 cals yesterday. I'm happy with that. I'm not going to go over 500 today either. 149lbs when I weighed myself this morning. I will be in the 130's again.

Someone shoot me

Well I'm back , for the millionith timeee. Starting over. 

I'm so weak I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been really depressed latley so I've been eating my face off, and no mia, I'm happy about that part. I haven't weighed in a while I think I'm around 149-150, I'm not going to weigh until a week. It's to fucking depressing because it's my own stupid fault.

I don't know why but I have this all or nothing attitude, either I starve myself or binge. There's just no inbetween with me, I can't be normal no matter how hard I try. I bought a bunch of cute clothes for christmas and I want to look good in it so I have to get my ass in gear.

When I'm doing horrible I don't know why but I can't even log on here. I feel so grosse. I'm sorry to m followers and I'm not going to leave again, not even if I have a bad day or two. I'm going to catch up on everyone else's posts. 

So far today I've had  225 calories and it's 9:30pm. I'm not going over 500, no matter what.

Wish me luck this time beautiess 

xo

Day 1

Well yesterday was supposed to be day 1 of ABC but I fucked it up, so I'm restarting today. I was 148 this morning, that's a bit better. I was really stressed out last night, couldn't sleep til like 3 in the morning. Today is a new day I won't fuck up anymore. I really want to finish it, I've never finished it before but I will. 

Thank you all for your comments, you guys are always here when I need some motivation or support, and I'm not going to leave when things get rough this time, I'm going to stick around. 

It's almost dinner time, I've had 90 calories so far. I can do this. I know I can. 

I'm back and fat again -_-

149lbs.

WTF is wrong with me? How did I get back here?
I've been stuffing my face and being a lazy fuck thats how.
Starting ABC diet today, so far I've had 250 cals and I'm going to have the other 250 later this evening.
My boyfriend is gone away for 6 weeks now, I want to be135 or lower when he gets back. I will do it this time. I missed you guys but I've been going through some rough stuff the past while and just don't know how to handle it besides stuffing my face and then feeling even worse. A new month a new start.